What is it that I want anyway?

What is it that I want anyway?

I am 33. I feel that I am middle age and I want to experience new ideas and new ways of thinking. I choose now to believe that we live off our thoughts, we are guided by our mind. I have been reading a lot lately. I never knew how powerful books could be until now.

When I was younger I just wanted to be social and play and get attention. I wanted people to see me and to be a bright shiny star in other people's life. Well, what about my life? I was no longer filling up me. I needed more. I wanted to find out more about religion and about cultures and what secrets are truly out there. I want to live fully, to be glad to get out of bed in the morning.

I have had some set backs that I plan to write more on later. Such as a dealing with a strong willed child, losing my mom to cancer, the blessings of being a mother to a 5 and 6 year old, Why having a twin is so much fun, dealing with hair loss and the day I was told that I have female pattern baldness- diffuse hair thinning at 33 and it gets worse as you age - oh yeah. BTW:(This is a great story - can't wait to vent about this one). Talk about shitty news. Geez!

So, my friends I have tons to let out - so stay tuned. In the mean while here is my book list. It is a good place to start to expand your mind. I also listen to, "Kelly Howell" and I love her audio mediation music and podcasts - sure is helping me change my fears of losing my hair and other middle age issues. www.kellyhowell.com


My current book list. I am reading book 7 now called, "The Fire From With In" and all I can say is that this series blows your mind or does mine. (In a good way). ;o)

I wanted to add some spice, some flavor and since I am now 33 and open to reading these types of materials, I am ready for it. Here is my book list, By Carlos Castaneda.

The rest of the book is reached through the links here and at the end of each section.
These books can be found at Amazon.com.

By Carlos Castaneda
1.The Teachings of Don Juan
2. Separate Reality
3. Journey to Ixtlan
4. Tales Of Power
5. The Second Ring of Power
6. The Eagle's Gift
7. The Fire From Within - reading now
8. The Power of Silence
9. The Art of Dreaming

How do these books make you feel? There is always something to take in with this series even if some things do not click other things will.